Well, I was in the 4th standard when I did get a personal computer and I was quite happy with a crap then (14″ monitor, Pentium I, Sony Floppy Drive, no CD-ROM, no VGA/AGP/PCI/PCI-xpress card and nothing) and I survived with it for like 1year and then I really got interested into games so I used to play many many many games, although the games that were released like in 1992 because I didn’t knew much about the cyber-world till then. After one eyar of gaming, I got interested into the internet and just what I did was lurking over web-sites, creating like a 100 e-mail ids without even one with an email, all empty!
And then two years a person came into my life, and he tought how to play games they are ment to be played and it was like okay, along with games I got interested in everything computer related, I used to do a custom work on my CPU like everyday for one whole year, then I also started usgin internet some 12 year olds do. Watch porn, download mini-arcade games everyday, download patches, trainers and cracks for games, lurk on Yahoo! Messenger chat-rooms and then just lie about being like 18/hunk and all that shit stuff… Then when I was 12 and a 1/2 I suddenly got really corporate in my work and also a little childish. I got a fully moded super-fast with outrageous graphics CPU which I assembled myslef traveliing like the whole of Mumbai to find the cheapest and best hardware and then lurk on the internet joining gaming communites and also social groups of people and I joined Neopets when I was 12 too.
After joining Neopets and getting so much interested in cyber-life I got fat, dark circles under my eyes and nothing else, I forgot my social-life, my real-life friends and everything. Then I also went down in my studies and got more inteested into porn, girls and all that stuff and also side-by-side I was becoming mature at certain things and I was also sinking to the depths of immaturity at certain things. I wasted each and every sencond of each and every day till I got 13 and I got well used to the internet.
Nothing changed though when I was 13 but a little more desperate, still peace-loving flowering guy, just know how to waste time and everything.
And now I don’t know from such stages how I went to become a pet-gamer elite and I used to play pet-games.
I forgot about one thing when I was 12, I used to chat a lot and I started chatting sincerrely and making friends on 17th Febuary 2005.
Then many changes also were there in my attitude and the way I used to see towards things.
Till now when I am soon to become 14 I have become more mature, have tonnes of friends, likes rock music, likes to live a life like a serpent! I am an member of like many communities dedicated to gaming, I am learning PHP and trying to find a place for my head in this cyber world.
I make some forums but nothing special, I think of making a web-site but for what topic only ^(the person above)^ knows.
I think I had gone through many rough situation when I was and I am 13 but I am not feeling to express them again now and start crying for the whole day.
Today morning I woke up and saw myself in a mirror, a yound person, capable of being moulded nto anything, having great potential of things and more mature than other kids of his age.
I just hope when I go 14 I am more better then ever and also alot of good changes in my life, I have started living life like a social beign (20%) I am elite gamer, I found a place for my head in the cyber world, working on my site dedicated to just me and me, stopped watching porn and also stopped being desperate, started making good friends and I am living a not so fabulous but okay life.
But still sometimes I find myself in the same confused and disturbing situation when I was like 12 so this still worries me but I have to live my life and I will as I should…
I know the above things I have just typed may haven’t made any sense for some people but I don’t care.
